Reflections

I listened to your song tonight and I became engulfed in your gold, velvet fur
I felt your tongue lick my hand
I was pleating your tail again...
You’re not gone
You’re still here living in my memory, living round my neck, living in my heart.
We called you ’seal pup’ because your eyes were full of innocence;
Untouched by the world’s corruption and pain
And you will never be corrupted

I want to be by your side, I want to sing you back to sleep when the thunder roars
“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.”
I miss you Barney.
I’m a Juliet constantly bleeding for her Romeo though no-one can see the blood.
No-one realises how much you meant to me...
No-one see’s the constant red trail my heart leaves every day.
No-one realises that you are my heart
I love you Barney

I come home and I miss your face. I miss your soft exterior
Mum brought home some of your fur when you left.
It’s nice, but it’s not enough, I want all of you:
Eating a Mars Bar you found on the street, fetching your ‘Ready, Steady, Teddy.’
I keep calling him Barney. I wish you two could have met; two beautiful souls

Dad misses you too. He once said, “Big show on you go, cheerio bye bye see you later son,” to Shane
His eyes were filled with the love of his past:
You.
Christopher keeps the only teddy you left fur on in his room; it will never leave.
Mum has your ‘seal pup’ eyes picture in the kitchen....and everywhere around the house actually...
They miss you

I keep Salem in my room
Your collar is in my study
Your pawprint is on my wall
Your face is everywhere
Your soul is in the sky...
I believe you were with me one night, comforting me after you left.
Your tail brushed against my hand and when I turned you were gone...

...please Barney, come back.