Sometimes

I don't know when my pain will end
I pray it will soon, but that all depends
If this medicine will work or not
I hope it does I want this pain to stop
Sometimes I am happy
Sometimes I am sad
Sometimes I am Angry and really mad
I am writing this poem so I don't have to cut
So people won't stare and think I am a nut
I want the glory I am suppose to see
Does it mean I have to kill myself so i can be free?
To be at peace with this life I live
Is that what it's going to take
Or will I question what i did
I guess I won't know until that time comes
Just know that you are all my heart loves