Thoughts

The clouds break and the stars shine through
its gonna be another night
its gonna be a beautiful time
sitting here with you

the music is playing
underscoring the moment
a sigh and a touch
and my head is whisked away

all sense is stolen by a touch
ironic and true
but only, only ever
truly only ever with you

I dont and I cant
begin to understand it
we don't talk
and maybe that is why
words can't explain

its your warm chuckle
your satisfied sigh
your experimental touches
that encompass me and weaken my knees

but as I become intoxicated by you
in almost every way
you chide me
and saunter away

do I not affect you
more than simple lust
more than just an erection

I know I seem needy
and that I am throwing myself at you
but your rule on pda
makes me feel starved for affection
and when you give me any
I am surprised you still want me
and the fact you seem to
doesn't help with my problem
with gravity

don't get me wrong
I like the professionalism
that you display
but it makes me feel
like a dirty little secret
that you are desperately ashamed of

and the urgency on your lips
makes me forget my doubts
not in if I like you
but if you ever think of me
ever when we are not alone
ever when you need to think about something else

do I distract you
the way you distract me
through a simple look or smile
or is this just physical

physical works for me
less painful when we fall apart
and like I said, it isn't like we talk
and I love how we don't need to
for every little thing
how you know how to tell me without words

how you know about my neck
and that even though you follow the leader
you are really are guiding the whole thing
so that makes kissing me first more than okay

because it is not all about me
and thats what makes it gold
and even though I am giving in
much more easily than I ever thought possible
I am okay with it
and don't regret it
because even if we only have
this short window in time
I want to make it count
and if I don't
there would be no way to explain
how much I regret not trying
so thank you for the wishes
and let me grant some for you.