Apology

Sometimes I don’t know if I should smile or if I should cry…

The pain I cause you is unbearable, but you just shrug it on by…

Your happiness is what I strive for, trying to keep a smile in place…

But sometimes I wonder if it’s a smile that’s plastered on your face…

You always make me laugh, you always brighten the day…

And I hate myself for all the words I say…

I’m sorry for this pain, this misery, this anguish, and this intolerable torture I’ve caused you…

And I hope that you’ll forgive me and that we can start anew…