Silence my Soul

uncertainty suffocates and smothers my heart..
did the love just end? did the love ever start?

my voice has become weak,I am unable to speak,
emotions flooding and now drowning my soul,

trying to pinpoint when the moment became clairvoyant...I've lost all control.
yearning for what is perhaps a giant misconception,
alone trying to decipher my heart's true perception.

wanting to call him, without knowing what to say
not yet willing to risk all I've built for perhaps just one day.

confused and in denial, barely able to maintain a thought,
without seeing his face, and desperately wanting to be back in that spot.

unable to not constantly be reminded about how his smile made me feel
confusing what I felt, was that moment manufactured in my mind or is this really real?

will this secret become too large for me to keep?
will I wonder each night as I drift off to sleep?

did he feel the same, will I ever know?
do I risk everything I finally have?
or do I silence my soul?