This is pure emotion.My mom and I had a huge argument,and I just went to my room and typed |
I can’t bear to be without you But being with you is so hard I can’t leave you behind I love you too much You are my everything The center of my world From that day you picked me up And became my mother I can’t be without your love But holding you close hurts I can’t hold you close But I can’t push you away I trap myself In your love I can’t run away I can’t retreat I will love you no matter what No matter the cost I will suffer for it And I know it But I can’t lose you I want you more than anything You’re all I think about I need you beside me To look up at and say “Hey Mom, can you help me?” You are my all I push and I pull And I can’t decide A piece of me is you Those words you say I love them so much It hurts to hold you close But I don’t care I’d suffer it all a thousand times For you Everything I do I think of you You are everything I can’t be separated From that moment I first saw you I loved you as my own My guardian My protector My companion My friend My mother I need you You were meant for me And I for you Everything I do I give my heart and soul For you For you I love you deeper than anything I can’t stop fighting I can’t stop hurting I hate myself But when I hold you close The pain lessens You hold me And tell me how special I am You told me I could be great I just had to try I’d cling to your every word And believe I could fly You held me Ran with me You climbed with me Showed me I could overcome I love you I could never be without you I hurt you And it hurts me I hate myself I hurt the one I love most But then you hold me And look me in the eye You tell me “Sydney, I CHOSE you Out of all those babies, I chose YOU.” And I realize that I am special And I try And I try And I fail But you never forget me You hold me up When I can’t walk When I want to give in You say “Keep going You’re almost there.” We make it together You shining with pride You tell me “I knew you could do it” And smile at me And I smile back A crooked grin Missing a few of those baby teeth But beaming with pride Because you are proud of me I love you All I’ve ever loved is you I push you away, and I hurt for it And I pull you back I can’t be separated I need you I know I was not meant to be without you You are my guardian angel My protector My ally My guide My friend My mother I would die for you I love you More than myself, or anything else I wake up Your face is the first thing in my mind I make mistakes And I try and I try But then I fall But you always help me rise up from it I hurt you But you always come back And tell me not to hate myself But to find my way I try and try And never succeed But you always tell me “Just keep going You’ll make it I just know it.” You hold me up higher than I could ever stand I know I need you I love you I love you I love you I LOVE YOU YOU ARE MY MOTHER MY PROTECTER MY GUARDIAN MY COMPANION MY FRIEND MY WHOLE WORLD I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO CALL YOU MOM I love you, Mom. I just don’t always know how to say it. |