How I define loneliness

What defines loneliness? There are many different places that you can feel lonely, even when people are near you. There are many different ways you can feel lonely. Three of the many different ways you can be alone that I find most meaningful are being physically, socially, and personally detached.

It is easy to tell when you are alone. When in the forest your ears try to capture any and every noise that echoes through the trees. You will hear things that you might not have thought there. Like a hawk, swooshing through the branches of the trees to catch his meal or rocks cracking and clashing with each other when an animal takes a wrong step. The air is cool; the sun is blocked by fog. That is when you know you are alone.

It is easy to tell when you are alone at a party. You enter with a friend, a group, or maybe alone. The sound, smell and the scene engulfs you like a savage bear hug straining your senses for just a few seconds, and then you are one with the party, one with the energy, love, anger, and the mixers of teen life. After you enter, you stand watching what is going on, you look around for someone you know who you can sit by, talk to; you don’t. You aren’t needed or wanted anywhere, so you sit away from the partiers. The music blazing the house, people dancing, talking, laughing, but you are not apart of the blazing, dancing, talking, laughing. People walk by taking no notice to you, maybe a glance, maybe a smile, but still no heed to your presence. You go to try and be apart of the party but each attempted futile then the last, you give up and go to your spot before, the party is close to end and nothing has changed for you.

It is easy to tell when you are alone with your struggles. School is getting harder, people the same. At school you tend be alone but you still have a small group of friends. But, even with the small group of friends you still feel like you can’t fully be real with them in fear or anger that they will not be serous about what you feel and how you feel about it or they wont even care about what you feel and how you feel that you feel that matters. There are teachers and others that you see try to help you, maybe not as you want, but there helping, they help with school, maybe something you said or wrote that they worry about but yet it is to late and not what you worry about now or even when it happen. With your friends and teachers, they seem not to understand what you are thinking or feeling unless you stand out with what is on your mind. When at home the lack of understanding and the feeling that if you were to tell them what is on your mind that they wouldn’t take is as you do or show that they understand why you feel that way or even think that what you are saying is a joke, a way to get attention. That is when you know that you are alone for the struggles you constantly embrace, never able to let go.

I guess what I‘m trying to say is that loneliness is something that can affect you, not always negative but it can hurt you more then things you thought worse. When alone in the forest it can calm you so life isn’t as hard to handle at times and a break of the mind can and most likely will help you control and manage your mind and look at things in a different way to make the loneliness go away just for a few minutes but those few minutes can be heaven in he world you are stuck in.