Thoughts

There it lies inside me.
Filling my heart, mind, and thoughts.
All the pain, hate and tears.
Slowly eating away at me.
I cant even stand to look at myself in the mirrior anymore because i dont see my reflection.
All i see is a broken heart. Alone, and dead. Cold as snow. THE FUNNY THING, is i did this to myself.
Believing all the lies that i told myself.
Floating through my mind nonstop.
Telling myself im not good enough,
and constently comparing myself to everyone else in every aspect i can think of.
Looking at the people surrounding me.
The jealousy, sadness, and lonliness involuntarily fills me from the start.
The pain hidden behind this mask increases as my smile begins to fade away,
because of how hard it gets to hold everything back.
And when those feelings go numb,
what do i have left?
Where am i supposed to go from there?
I guess ill just have to keep thinking,
and see what happens....