Is anyone there?

About four years ago I recall telling someone that I couldn't remember the last time that I laughed or cried. Since then, I believe I have done enough crying to last a lifetime and a little laughing too. I feel like I have been to hell and I'm fighting my way back but there is no one around. After leaving my husband that I had been with for 16 years, I realized that I was leaving alone. The friends, the house, even the Christmas cards are all his now. The lonliness really set in after watching a wonderful movie about a group of oppressed people gaining a voice and being heard. The end is inspiring and vindicating yet why did I feel so sad? I realized that through it all they had each other yet at this moment, I do not have anyone. The most love showed to me are from my boys and a male stranger that doesn't even know me. God bless that man and my boys. Wish they were with me now.

The gospel it one of joy and hope!!! Through this experience I have realized that sometimes we need to choose sadness in order to increase in joy. At least that is what I am hoping because I have chosen the harder road and it has a lot of sadness. I'm hoping that there will be joy down there somewhere.