Endless Thunderstorms

Looking up, there are huge, dark clouds hovering over my crown
like bees surrounding a bee-hive.
I can hear loud roars all around me
where there once was silence.
Ever since you set us aside,
we have continued to drift apart.

How did it come to this?
I don't have a clue.
It's killing me now because I can't seem to forget
when you would call me beautiful
and wrap your arms around me while I slept next to you.
You told me to trust you with my heart...
And I believed you.

It's so different now, now that we barely speak.
Where did you go?
No warning, no good-bye.
You assured me we were on the same page-
I think you skipped ahead, maybe went back a few.

I'm still waiting for you to reread this story we began to write,
but you made it clear that will never happen.
The only hope I can hold onto is the hope I have for myself-
to have the strength to keep writing this story without you.
I should call you my inspiration;
even credit you for my self-reconstruction.

The moment I knew you changed directions,
I felt myself losing my way.
Once upon a time, you saved me-
from myself and destructive temptations.

But here I am, struggling to save myself;
save myself from turning my back
on this path I thought we were leading together.

After all the time you kept me close, I grew to love you..
I fell in love with you.
And now I'm here, alone.
My mind filled with unanswered questions.
The way you left was so subtle,
yet I instantly felt the change as it weighed down on me.