Love letter |
Dear self, I'm sorry for starving you And introducing you to weed I'm sorry for making you drink And lowering your chances to succeed I'm sorry for cutting you I'm sorry for the pills From Percocets to Adderall I thought would give you thrills The friends you lost And true friendships I destroyed The chaotic family life That you now try to avoid The rumors and negative images That now follow your name I really can't direct this at anyone Because I am the one to blame No, maybe it's not only me But perhaps the media and TV But it's the weakness and damage That's allowed it to proceed Therapy, strangers Thoughts and tears Have run through your life In only a matter of two years This is what you wanted Or at least I thought you did But now that I've given it to you You want to hide it under a lid Conceal it safely So no regrets can escape But your regrets are your past And now you can only create Create a new beginning And start all over again College is coming up Your life has yet to end I know I don't hate you But you do hate me I created this monster You never truly wanted to be You are beautiful Someday I'll make you see I want to come back to you Because you were and always will Be everything to me Stay in there And keep your thoughts true Because one day you'll realize I really do... Love, You. |