Awakening

I know I was
  too young to know
  because that was then,
Long ago
  and since then
  I have grown.
And now I know.
It's been too long,
  too much pain going on
  and I know it will keep on
If I don't go.
  That I know.
I've tried and I've tried
  so much that I've died
  inside
And I know I have nothing to hide.
  It's sure not pride.
It's been so long,
  singing the same old
  same old song
And I know it's just too wrong
  to keep going on this way.
So today I pray
  for the strength that I may
  be able to go on my own
All alone,
  if that's what it takes,
  no matter how I feel.
I've had enough strife.
  I'm taking back my life.
I need to have time to heal.
  And I will.
In time I will find
  much needed peace of mind
  and I know the pain will subside.
Inside I want to be
  a brand new person who can see
  a future ahead of the fight,
Not just in hindsight
  but a light
  guiding my way through the darkest night.
This I know is right.


(Original write date: July 1995)