Waiting for death

As I await the light of dealth,I wounder am I already dead? Drowning in my own sorrows,never forgetting the pain Letting love pass me by,while lonliness settles in And guilt eats away at my soul My soul which I have caused so much pain Cursed was I to love forever Each tear reminding me of past afflictions Wounds once mended,now unfold with the truth be told on my mind Waiting for the years to come and go Waiting for death to deliver me from the thoughts of wander in my brain To be at rest with my own desition Or am I already dead Having to deal with the mistakes I have choosen Tossing and turning my mind refreshes so that I can feel the pain again I am between life and death living amongst those who are happy and I the unhappy one Living in darkness My soul shall never rest as the tears drop from my eyes My soul is in mourning as I await for the darkness to end I believe my life just began