Persistent Need

Throughout the years I've been loving you from which I could

Remember since I met you, life has taught me so much;

I learned a lot. I understand more than I can feel

Now that I'm older; I ought to know better,



Why the need for love if it hurts?

Why hurt that person you love?

Why need to be hurt at all if there's love?



The longer I spend time with you, the more questions I have

Too many questions, so little answers

Doubts were the reason you left me, the reason I cried every night



Caused of too much pain has led me to the pit of

Hatred; where no lights can be seen

And you weren't there to help me up from it



I tried to shout and used all the voice I have but, I can

Only hear my echo repeatedly saying I need you

There's a way to get out nevertheless, I'm blinded by my

Overwhelming feelings for you and only you



It has been a year...I missed you to death

No love feeds my heart full and care that satisfies my thirst like you do

My soul ran out empty until only despair is left to move me



Fear of rejection has stopped me from asking any help;

For I was more than twice disappointed from the love I asked for;

Tired of looking pathetic, oh that shameful look!



Every time, I ask for something you can't possibly give

I tried to fill this loneliness by loving him more, giving him all I've got

I forgot I was the one longing for it, needing it



My need for you is like water that kept drowning me

Until I couldn't breathe no more;

I have lost my energy to fight, all my will to survive



This pain is so deep, I wished it could stop.

Why, even death is the only escape I have found..

This isn't the solution I want but at least it would stop,

Stop the anguish of grief, and hopefully loose the love

I have for you...and only you



I can no longer bear this torture you have for me,

This persistent need that can only be fulfilled

By you.......and only you