"You were my drug"

At first I resented your cool smooth exterior
Your piercing eyes, captivated me, my own kind of high
I knew the outcome even before I stepped into your world
And yet, I was curious, my inquisitive mind got the best of me

I wanted to taste, one taste, I tried to convince myself its just to see
One touch and you were my heroin; I was passionately enthralled by your distinctive traits
I so desperately longed for any signs of emotional connection
But like all drugs you never spoke back, you made me weak, powerless

I only assumed you felt the same, as I wept myself to sleep
The last farewell left me to rehabilitation
As the tears rolled down my cheeks I laid on the ground, stumping at my heart
I felt nothing, numb, except for the shrieking pain you left behind

I prayed please, God, take this away
I’m dying, bleeding, helpless, take this love away
Now, as I look ahead, I still see your face, I still know every detail every line
But it’s the memory of those nights; the nights without my drug that make me turn away

I know the road ahead is not easy, but my heart has healed
I know love won’t come easy, it may take some work
But my will is strong, and my heart now stronger
And in the back of my mind is a song “I will learn to love again”