My Love

The first time I saw his eyes, it felt as if he stole apart of me. My heart raced almost as if it was going to beat out of my chest the first time I heard his voice. I needed to see him again, but how. How could I come to tell him how I felt, I should be ashamed, he's married, I'm married. I'm lost, confused, disgusted, but at the same time I feel as if I finally met the person of my dreams the one that was created just to be in my arms. That's it, I told him, as he said he felt the same what are we to do. He wanted me to do more than I was willing to do, I couldn't go behind someone's back to cheat, I just couldn't. I told his wife who happened to be my best friend that I was in love with her husband and that I needed her to decide if she wanted to continue to be apart of her life or if she needed me to keep silent. I was shocked, she told me not to change anything to continue talking to her, to him, that they both wanted me in their lives. What was I going to do, I couldn't just go back, I didn't know how, I'm not built that way. The day's continued on, I saw him no more, I heard him no more. He became a distant memory that my heart aches for everyday. I can't find the words to describe how it felt, I was numb, broken and once again lost and confused. He lied, he didn't want just me, he wanted his wife and me but I couldn't. I closed myself off to the outside world for a while, I just couldn't handle knowing it was all lies. I ask myself everyday, does he remember me? Today, I just no longer care for I know the truth and how I feel and it's not up to me to make his decisions. So goodbye my love yesterday, today, tomorrow, I will no longer feel the pain or sorrow.