What If

When the world overwhelmed your mind that it makes you want to drown in your tears. Drenched in your own fantasy. Or fall asleep and wake up in other era. Start a new life. Not knowing who's friend and who's foe. Try to figure out your life from the start. Like pressing a reset button. So easy and simple.

But what if you want to hold a piece from the past? From those memories? From the person that change you for the better. But what if you can't do that? Because their life is not effected by your presence and they actually fine to find out that you're gone. Even if you gone forever.

Somehow, after all of this thought, the only thing you could do is cry. Just letting all your emotion and pain go as the tears fall from your eyes. Hope those feeling just evaporate as your tears dry out. But like a water cycle, those feelings will come back with the rain. Hit you like a thousand arrows. Rushing through your head. Mercilessly. Trigger by the face from the past. Or a scar that never heal. Or a tattoo you don't remember having because the euphoria you have for a moment.

What about those memories? We can't erase it. The only things to do is to move past those memories. Living in the moment. But what if the moment is hurtful? Too much going on around you that makes you feel so lonely. Forgotten. But when you try to re-life the past, you regret everything? The thing you said or even the thing you left unsaid. It makes you want to run to the future. And you start dreaming. And you become optimist to see a brighter side. But what if the other side is not what we hope? What if everything become worst?

After everything, you become numb. Heartless. Soulless. But mostly numb. From the pain, the arrows, and the memories. But will it makes us stronger?