To my mother

They took me away
My world was shattered
I wanted my mother
Nothing else mattered

You abandoned me
You left me alone
In a world so cruel
But look how I’ve grown

Even without you
I’ve done more than okay
And though that’s true
I still wonder every day

What it would have been like
With my mother by side
To protect and guide me
With tears that fall with pride

You made an effort to see me
Once in a blue moon
More often than not you cancelled
Singing the same old tune

“Where’s my mother?”
I always cried
“She’ll be here soon,”
They always lied

My heart wept for you
Though it seemed you never cared
I wondered if you even wanted me
Your love felt unshared

As I grew older
I wanted to see you less and less
Though my heart still needed you
I was confused and under stress

Even as a grown woman
Who found her own way out
I tried to show you
What my love was about

I tried to talk to you
To tell you I needed you
How could you be so ignorant?
You couldn’t possible understand the hell I’ve been through.

You chose everyone else over me
Every single day
I tried so hard to love you
But you threw my love away

And though I had so much
My love for you is depleted
I’ve exhausted all my options
And I truly feel defeated

Just know that I am a strong woman
Despite everything I’ve been through
I’m a survivor, never a victim
And I had to do it without you