sometimes I wonder if time will ever recover we can relive our best moments our greatest downfalls everything molds us into the shape we are everything has an effect some more so than others I can try to speak about pain all day. but If I cannot accept the challenges ahead of me I wont ever break through my lows to get back to the high. I am a dream catcher a storm chaser Its the thrill of the ride not the destination. Its ironic because I really dont enjoy rollercoaster. but I cherish the emotional rides life brings me. its ever changing. me so more than anyone else. I definitely am living an adventure sometimes I really cannot stand the constant movement other days I cant wait to get back to the road I am a kid with a few talents with little direction I raised myself through my mistakes absent parents chasing there acceptance made me rebel and strive for fantasy Ive been to insanity a few times I came back with many stories to tell. Now I just need someone to listen I am a bard and I have many tales. I wonder roads with meet greats and many farewells. It all made me this person with these ideas theories and philosophies talents and abilities to wish upon stars and tell compelling experiences Its all here. for I conjure every ounce of my emotions makeing it possible to see what strangers go through its amazing what you can find randomly in life I am a nature lover and fall for beauty easily flawless skin gives me weak knees for mine bear scars and scabs from life Its all a little intense at times sometimes its a little bland sometimes I wish things would pick up other days slow down and shed tears in the pouring rain I have danced the night away in the moonlight cried in the storm to hide my tears i am not afraid to say I have fears but my biggest fear of all is fear itself Its time for change. again. I know when it comes I feel it in my gut. I am ready for it. Cant say I always have been. Maybe I should quit my job and find another one. delete my contacts to connections to the drugs I love Its a bright world and its about to get cold I dont want to be snowed in. my walls came and spoke to me last night They said I am in a position of great accomplishments but I got to keep myself healthy within. its hard not to fall into saddness when your bed bares much sin I roll over sometimes and see some of the people I have been with laying next to me as they sleep soundly. It makes me a little weary at times and other times lucky that I had the chance to fall into some type of lovely heartache the more my heart breaks the more I learn of the world the more I see my dreams and I get closer to closer with the girl I have not met yet I wish to raise a child share my stories of my world when I tuck them into bed so I said I never would grow up but this is a feeling I never thought I would have I see some futures in my dreams I wish to experience I see people friends and my blended family. Have you every seen disney's ice age? The sloth creates a family with the most random of individuals as they experience pain. pleasure and life lessons together a family of this nature is what I truly treasure blood meets water and bonds will last forever as the adventure gets deeper and more emotional as we grow up grow out and move on in the world. with thoughts like this. This concludes my year in the pouring rain. The pain of hibernation is over I have found ways to keep me sane. A new love for people and life Its what I live for These people I will gather together is what I will die for and the women of my dreams is what Ill wait for... believe me when I say this. but I found sunshine. |