Degree of Discontentment

I have a confession to make.
And Lord, you already know what's in my heart.
You know my every thought
So Father, here it is...

Lord, I'm struggling with being content
Struggling with being satisfied
Now don't get me wrong
I'm thankful and appreciative of all that you provide
But from somewhere deep inside
I'm already sick of this 9-to-5
And I'm tired of all the lies
Telling me
That this is all I'm ever gonna be
I'd be lying if I said this lifestyle is what I really want
What I really want is to leave this place
What I really want is to see you face-to-face
To preach your Word telling others of your grace
I don't need to be rich and famous
Just enough to make a living
Enrich your name and make you famous
Tell the world how they've been forgiven
By your love and sacrifice
Through your one and perfect son
Jesus the Savior, Messiah and Christ

Lord, is it really meant to be
Or is all this just a fantasy
A fallacy that I made up in my mind
is the plan you have for me truly divine
Am I really suppose to do big things like I believe in my heart
Or are the big strings really lies that tug at my heart
Are the desires in my heart really from you
Am I really doing what it is that you're calling me two
Lord, help me
I'm feeling so lost
Everyday that I rise I'm counting the cost
Of what it truly means to carry my cross

Lord, help me
Decipher the fire and desire I feel in my Spirit
Validate that growing flame, I swear I won't fear it
In the midst of this confusion
I've arrived at this conclusion
You're God
I'm not
You run my life, here take it, it's yours
'Cause I just can't keep doing this on my own anymore
Lord, take me
Use me
Show me where to go
You're my General
My King
The One that I follow