A Fast Life of Fickle Frenzy

A Fast Life of Fickle Frenzy



I’m gonna say I can find someone new

Or maybe that I already did

I’m gonna say I wanna run away

Just like I always have

I’m gonna say you’re only holding me back

That you’re in my way

I’m gonna scream and storm and cry

But please make me stay



I’m gonna say it’s all your fault

That things never change

I’m gonna wish I hadn't met you

And return your ring

I’m even gonna pack my suitcase

And write a farewell speech

I’m gonna swear and cuss and pout

But don’t let me out of your reach



I’m gonna think about the past again

And how things could’ve been

I’m gonna claim that I won’t miss you

As I cry myself to sleep

I’m gonna wonder about my exes

And where we could be now

I’m gonna howl and faint and grieve

But don’t let me leave



You’re gonna miss me sometimes

Though I haven’t left

You’re gonna long for the better days

And wish we’d made them last

You’re gonna shatter against my blows

But you’ll never blame me

You’re gonna break down and wince and weep

But you’re gonna sway me



And I’m gonna live for the summers

When I feel whole again

I’m gonna draw and paint for you

Like I always have

I’m gonna latch on to the old memories

Until I make myself smile

And you’re gonna hold me as I cry

Because you've been there all the while.