I am all alone

I go to a club
to find a partner I grub.
but at the end of the night.
I leave without my knight.

I feel alone
feeling only better when I am stone.
But It's only for a moment
then it's back to my old sentiment.

And one day I wake, having  no clothes
raped, because when I am stone I doze.
I realise I am my worse enemy.
as I feel myself all slimy

I can't continue this way
In the mirror I can't even look at the display.
There's only one solution.
Using the knife, for my own execution.

I feel in a trance
With the knife, a short romance.
He's the one who will set me free.
At the count of three.

I enter the blade in my flesh.
With my heart, it mesh(es).           
I take a last breath.
Finally here is death......