Blood ties

The air is warm and dry a soft wind caresses my skin,
I long for the madness of a storm,
Maybe to block out your words? So I could say I never heard
You say “goodbye”, family and blood ties they were never real.
Even as a child I knew all too well, blood didn’t make him “Daddy”
Only his actions and support, yet here I am broken again
To the words of family, I thought I would be in your heart forever
That, that love would never be so flimsy

Even though you turned bitter, I never saw it flung at me.
Now my face is strand as I try to say “You’re wrong, I didn’t know!”
And you only tell me you’re done
I relies once again how stupid trusting thoughts blood ties truly ever was
I’m sorry you hate me grandma all I wanted to say was “happy mother’s day”
But instead I fling the phone across the room and scream
I don’t remember ever being this loud, ever screaming with all my heart
Tears are falling down my face, but I’m not crying yet,

My breath is gone; lungs burning I’m still trying to scream threw the hysterics
All I do is laugh at the irony; and crying as my heart is breaking
Again, and again I feel this pain of broken blood ties,
Face to knees I try to breath threw all the madness in me,
Grandpa did you have to tell the one who betrayed are family to tell me that my dog is sick?
Do you hate me so much, that you wish to never hear my voice again?
Your voice is cold as you tell me “You don’t have to call”

Two people I thought would always love me,
You’ve abandoned me, and my brothers and sisters
Even when I wish to hate you, and let you break the blood ties
You were always there and have always loved me so why?
Must you hate me and say “Good by”?