watching the person you love through someone else's actions, and the regret they carry.
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Unease page1 The midnight hour approach’s with such an unease lying all around. Feelings of despair and desperation that slowly turn the gut, entrapping, twisting and contorting your emotions into a world without understanding. The pure smell of death sent from the depths of hell drench every vessel of your mind, waiting for the lord of despair to become present in your very midst. He will claim your thoughts and dreams, extracting them from the very essence of your life, snatching them with a smile of contempt as he derides you into a life of failure, obliterating the happiness, joy and serenity that you once found in the bosom of love. Then quietness, so still, so claim, but with such a silence so loud smashes any reason or conjecture into a madness of torment and fear, paralyzing the emotions, ripping the very heart from your life as it torments and incarcerates your soul. Emptiness then descends removing all feelings of compassion, numbing every emotion, as it leaves you to look through the two way mirror of life with no hope and abandonment. Trapped in a life of self preservation you notice a change, an adjustment to the lives of those around, you feel their pain, caused by the gravity of their isolation, that leaves them so desolate, frustrated and angry. Then from afar you watch the slow destruction of their soul, but deep inside you have an inner knowledge that you can no longer defend or protect them as once before. Over time they have mocked and tormented, trying to destroy and control the feelings of love, they have persecute your soul with the failure of emotions then slowly emptied the vessel of love. With an intensity so strong they have destroyed all hope and understanding then demised the caring person that you once were. Through their blinkered glasses and lack of knowledge they have not realised that you have removed the embers of love from their lives and concealed them under the bushel of protection in your burning heart. (cont) page 2 For a time you still offered the love and passion only to see it rebuked and pushed away, you cared and defended their rights, giving comfort and compassion to support their soul and life, but now tears of pity flood your soul for the flower of life they once were, hoping with e deep desire that one day their happiness will return and the beauty that encompassed their lives will again shine brighter than the morning sun. Deep into the depths of despair they have fallen, only to be mesmerised and ridiculed under the spell of a new mentor, craving a deep lust, to covet, envy and destroy through jealousy all the things they once held precious. Then with contentment swamping their minds they allowed hatred, derision and confusion to develop, slowly dominating their passion, love and feelings as it forces them to return to a life full of discontentment, regret and fear from yester year. They cradle their past for protection, seeking answers to questions that have already been answered, ignoring compassion, rebuking truth, dismissing honesty they gradually slip into a dense fog woven from the lies and deceit that consumes and chocks their very freedom. In time the powers of their mentor diminish, releasing his grasp and restraints, removing the blinkers of injustice that have clouded their mind with such contempt. A resurgence of true love begins to envelop their soul, liken to the morning dawn breaking through the shadow of the night, exposing the flaws of false dreams, revealing that at times love may be tested but never conquered, that those who have been touched will never be separated, and the passion for truth and love will never be quenched. |