this

sickness shutters through me,
taking me back,
i've been here before.
I swore I wouldn't be back,
The pain fills my cups and i'm left to consume,
the bitterness flows,
I watch through these eyes,
for my secrets they hold,
My minds torn apart,
as i'm growing cold.
One day it will change.
and i'll break free,
these chains won't be able to confine me,
but for now i'll lay.
for now i'll sleep.
One day i'll wake up and it'll all just be a dream.