Fate's debt

How do I pay fates debt
When my heart loves
But my brain takes

Do I soothe my soul with apathy
and release our love to atrophy

How do I end this pain
Lungs thick with smoke
Veins full of dope

Do I stop and face my inner demon
that lashed my youth without a reason

How do I say sorry
When trust has died
Im made of lies

Do I point my pain just like a gun
So youll know the best of me is done

How do I know joy
I'm versed in hate
Drunk with rage

Do I pretend that we'll be okay
While I'm still here, but you've gone away

How do I smile
With teeth grinding
Tongue twisted

Do I write my soul and bear my heart
When I know it not where do I start