Talking To Myself

Sometimes I go away, I disappear for entire days

And it worries people you know

So I got to write a note, leave a message,

"I'm alright, just going for a walk..."



It's always so dark



Always alone, going where my legs take me

I have to leave, I need to "not be" around

I need to find sense and clarity

People disorient me.



I need to run away



Across bridges

Bridges are my first love

To the sea, to the foam, to the black burnt sky, touching the symbol of infinity

In the deafening clutter of train wheels thundering past nocturnal birds

Gasping up at the moon with my awkward limbs

Stunned by the perfection that hangs golden and pure over the insanity that is humankind



I am tired

I am tired of you being afraid for me

Why are you so frightened?

I'm only going for a walk, I'm only talking to myself



Do you maybe want to hold my hand, so I can teach you how to fly without shifting a knee or lifting a thigh?

I don't dare look at you

But I know you want to know

And I want to tell you,

To swim with you, stretch your limbs before the sun, my love, walk with the crown of words I made for you



But then you can leave now

Before it's too late

And I know I must recede, recede I will

I'm just talking to myself

I'm just talking to stained walls.