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Hello. My name is Lilith Poghosyan.I am writing to complain about the attitude of the nation who is supposed to be mine towards me , about me after me coming here in order to give a helping hand to my family which was in need of help, as they were in a shabby condition , and looking sick.However when I came here my bag was stolen with valuables including money and after my return to Moscow where I have been teaching during my entire conscious life (that is from the age of 18) very intensively ,chasings started. My clothes were ripped and stolen.My shoes broken and I was clearly being chased and harrassed by people of Armenian nationality. In 2008 after assaults I went back to Moscow to restore my work of a teacher there and I stayed in Hotel Tsentralnaya for a couple for days only before I would rent a flat. My experience in Tsentralnaya was almost lethal. I went to the Reception in order to make a payment. I had dollars. The Receptionist spoke in a very sweet way and apologised that they didnt take dollars-I suggested I would go out of the hotel, exchange and return to make the payment to which she said: Oh no please dont you dont need to , Please make the payment when you ll be leaving. So I went upstairs to the room. In the middle of the night at about 2 am my phone rang and it was teh receptionist who spoke using another tone. SHe spoke sounding as some street prostitute .She shouted, take your bag in your hands and get out. I couldnt believe what I heard. I thaught it was a mistake. She said- hey girlie!!! your room is not paid get out. I was really shocked to see sucha turn of events in the same hotel at the same evening and I reminded her what she had been telling me before. She said, then our security will come by to ' help you' . Well, I am not the type of woman who would allow 'securities ' to come upstairs to 'help me' and besides I was dresses and only had a small bag , so I went downstairs immediately where I reminded her of our meeting around 4-5 hours ago. She kept telling the same things. Alongside with this she said something like this. Do you think you are a Princess?? OUT OUT!!!!!! Police came but they didnt do anything to help me, so I sat in the nearby cafe o'clock in the until 6 o'clock in the morning sipping Cappuccino. then I wanted to take a cab , when a car drove by. The person who got out of that car said" Oh Lea, I know you, all of this is arranged by the man who used to be your student and he likes you but he gets so upset that you are such a pragmatic and pedantic woman so he will be harrassing you until he gets you and he kept talking all sorts of crap, the bottomline of this was that I should be calling my student begging his to take me to his home and I should tell him that I am out in the street in train station.. I really didn't take this seriously since the person he was talking about is an extremely serious minded and very normal guy with a serious attiitude towards his family and himself and I of course didnt believe that. After about two months from then, I was staying in hostel Arbat, where they said to me that they are going to have a guest delegation and they asked me to take my things and go to another hotel called Sukharevka. In Sukharevka , the same thing happened. The receptionist called me and asked what time I would be back. I told her I would be there at 4 p.m . Now she said she would be waiting. When I went there she gave me my bag and slammed and locked the door with a laughter and with the words" Now the Princess is in the street!" She also gave me the visit card of the student of mine with the same words, that I should go to him. And there was an address there. I again decided I wouldnt go anywhere, however when I went downstairs to catch a Taxi to my previous assistant Nataly's home- I saw a car that was standing there as if chasing me. And when the driver spoke to me- I understood it was going to be the same scene. I wanted to understand what was going on , there fore being a very righteous person I went to the Police Station. Now in that Police station, they assured me it was arranged by the same person,my previous student and after a few hours of Mockery attitude towards me -they said that because I am outside the Hotel, they will send me to to the Madhouse. They sent me to some place where I was Physically attacked. My clothes were ripped off.I was raped I was stunned and shocked so that I couldnt speak a word. My consciousness then went off. I woke up after some time in a hospital. People doing this were two old women, one younger woman and two men I was sent to Yerevan after this. A student of mine called Olga Shifrina phoned me right the same day and offered me money 4000USD as a help. Being in Armenia I can sense that this is not my homeland. I am composing music, painting , writing a book and speaking Hebrew. Please help me find my home. Please help me find my real Parents. I have no problem with any person and I love people much, and I love and accept all Nations but I see a very evident difference between me and the Nation I am supposed to belong to, for the mere reason that They are able to Put a Woman down ,and humiliate her only because She says she is a Princess. An Ace linguist and a Vivid person as I am , I have no job here and when I try to go somewhere to cooperate -the only answer is mockery and insulting words. In one case, when I did editing of many pages of biological Book, when I phoned to ask courteously if that person who introduced himself as the owner of Unesco could pay, I heard the following answer ,that I should go to his home otherwise he will do something and send me to the madhouse. ... I do not know what to think of this place I do not know what to think of what is happening A woman I met in the Synagogue told me that ,I , in reality have been brought to this country in childhood that my roots are different.She said I was Jewish and tht explains why I speak and sing in Hebrew I just know for sure that Armenia and I are different in attitudes towards life and in general and I want to find MY ROOTS. PLEASE HELP ME. https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=em+satori+shegamatsu http://www.writing.com/main/portfolio/view/satori999 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mQhttIAVXA https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJ7kQ8TL9aM https://www.google.ru/search?q=em+satori+shegamatsu&newwindow=1&source=lnms&tbm=... Don't put me down-YOU DONT HAVE TO:) When you put me down ,then at the time of crisis when you need my help and call my name: you begin looking for me in the lowest levels. Don't put down LOVE For I am LOVE See, where it is that TODAY you have started looking for your love? IN muds? But remember the lower you put me -the higher I go. So you will nEVER be able to find me there in the lowest levels The boy in the hospital asked me to 'scan ' him and asekd me to tell him what do I see , in the lower part of his abdomen. I told him , that it was ok, nothing special: just an abdomen with its contents he, then said: I am surprised you didnt see my pile of keys and he produced keys hanging from his belts See? I dont look for the KEY where the human waste is. IT always has to be on the same level with HEART and NESHAMA(soul) Look for all KEY at the level of your heart. and soul. For- that is the KEY. Think. Where is it that you today are looking for Love? Where is it today that you are looking for - for all well-being Now answer Have you ever been able to find what you were looking for? And now: Answer more honestly to the same question Now: Even more honestlyNow NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSDESSSSSSSSSS.:) -------------------------------------------------------------------------////-----?-._=0 I once was a little fairy living in a forest. I loved to eat berries:) And I had MANY MANY MANY friends:) So MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY But I lived in forest not because it was a forest but because that was what the whole world looked like as people didnt chop the trees and greenery to make a living.... I once suddenly fell asleep/ And everyone else did. But my friends NEVER DIE:) So even asleep they tried to hard to live:) To feed their families asleep To make love asleep To work asleep. The only problem is that because their eyes were closed and they were doing all tasks somewhat blindly- they failed sometimes, ummm, well... quite OFTEN:( Now, imagine one tried to cut that berry from the tree to feed his family or child,with all good intentions But, instead :( he cut accidentally his friend's throat ..in order to fulfil his innocent desire of feeling his family child He didnt see He didnt even notice adn HE moved ON.... I woke up+ With music I had a long colorful magic,musical wand and I played that music for my friends to wake up with music MY LOVED ONES HURU HURU AKHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!./-=+++++++ They all began to sing and dance to my music:) Their MUSIC:) For I AM NESHAMA:) :) :) Here is that music in the forest:) Don't put me down-YOU DONT HAVE TO:) When you put me down ,then at the time of crisis when you need my help and call my name: you begin looking for me in the lowest levels. Don't put down LOVE For I am LOVE See, where it is that TODAY you have started looking for your love? IN muds? But remember the lower you put me -the higher I go. So you will nEVER be able to find me there. The boy in the hospital asked me to 'scan ' him and asekd me to tell him what do I see , in the lower part of his abdomen. I told him , that it was ok, nothing special: just an abdomen with its contents he, then said: I am surprised you didnt see my pile of keys and he produced keys hanging from his belts See? I dont look for the KEY where the human waste is. IT always has to be on the same level with HEART and NESHAMA(soul) Look for all KEY at the level of your heart. and soul. For- that is the KEY. Think. Where is it that you today are looking for Love? Where is it today that you are looking for - for all well-being Now answer Have you ever been able to find what you were looking for? And now: Answer more honestly to the same question Now: Even more honestlyNow NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSDESSSSSSSSSS.:) -------------------------------------------------------------------------////-----?-._=0 I once was a little fairy living in a forest. I loved to eat berries:) And I had MANY MANY MANY friends:) So MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY But I lived in forest not because it was a forest but because that was what the whole world looked like as people didnt chop the trees and greenery to make a living.... I once suddenly fell asleep/ And everyone else did. But my friends NEVER DIE:) So even asleep they tried to hard to live:) To feed their families asleep To make love asleep To work asleep. The only problem is that because their eyes were closed and they were doing all tasks somewhat blindly- they failed sometimes, ummm, well... quite OFTEN:( Now, imagine one tried to cut that berry from the tree to feed his family or child,with all good intentions But, instead :( he cut accidentally his friend's throat ..in order to fulfil his innocent desire of feeling his family child He didnt see He didnt even notice adn HE moved ON.... I woke up+ With music I had a long colorful magic,musical wand and I played that music for my friends to wake up with music MY LOVED ONES HURU HURU AKHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!./-=+++++++ They all began to sing and dance to my music:) Their MUSIC:) For I AM NESHAMA:) :) :) Here is that music in the forest:) Don't put me down-YOU DONT HAVE TO:) When you put me down ,then at the time of crisis when you need my help and call my name: you begin looking for me in the lowest levels. Don't put down LOVE For I am LOVE See, where it is that TODAY you have started looking for your love? IN muds? But remember the lower you put me -the higher I go. So you will nEVER be able to find me there. The boy in the hospital asked me to 'scan ' him and asekd me to tell him what do I see , in the lower part of his abdomen. I told him , that it was ok, nothing special: just an abdomen with its contents he, then said: I am surprised you didnt see my pile of keys and he produced keys hanging from his belts See? I dont look for the KEY where the human waste is. IT always has to be on the same level with HEART and NESHAMA(soul) Look for all KEY at the level of your heart. and soul. For- that is the KEY. Think. Where is it that you today are looking for Love? Where is it today that you are looking for - for all well-being Now answer Have you ever been able to find what you were looking for? And now: Answer more honestly to the same question Now: Even more honestlyNow NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSDESSSSSSSSSS.:) -------------------------------------------------------------------------////-----?-._=0 I once was a little fairy living in a forest. I loved to eat berries:) And I had MANY MANY MANY friends:) So MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY But I lived in forest not because it was a forest but because that was what the whole world looked like as people didnt chop the trees and greenery to make a living.... I once suddenly fell asleep/ And everyone else did. But my friends NEVER DIE:) So even asleep they tried to hard to live:) To feed their families asleep To make love asleep To work asleep. The only problem is that because their eyes were closed and they were doing all tasks somewhat blindly- they failed sometimes, ummm, well... quite OFTEN:( Now, imagine one tried to cut that berry from the tree to feed his family or child,with all good intentions But, instead :( he cut accidentally his friend's throat ..in order to fulfil his innocent desire of feeling his family child He didnt see He didnt even notice adn HE moved ON.... I woke up+ With music I had a long colorful magic,musical wand and I played that music for my friends to wake up with music MY LOVED ONES HURU HURU AKHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!./-=+++++++ They all began to sing and dance to my music:) Their MUSIC:) For I AM NESHAMA:) :) :) Here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jY7WYQKaGJE ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- HELPFUL WARNING TO ALL AND AL,HAKOL NOONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TOUCH ME OR TO COME CLOSE TO ME OR TO LOOK AT ME OR TO INTERACT WITH ME USING A BAD OR DISHONEST NOTION THIS PERSON WILL BE DEPRIVED OF ANY MERCY OR ATTENTION WHICH I CAST UPON PEOPLE WHICH ARE MY THAUGHTS THE BAD THAUGHT IF NOTICED WILL BE FORGOTTEN IMMEDIATELY MY ENERGY IS THE ENERGY UNIVERSAL THAT WHICH IS MADE OF LIGHT AND LOVE AND IF I ALLOW TO COME CLOSE TO SOMEONE ENERGY WHO TRIES TO GIVE ME DISHONESTY AND DESTRUCTIVENESS THEN MY ENTIRE ENERGY WILL TURN INTO DARKNESS AND MY ENERGY IS BIG COMMENSURATE WITH THE UNIVERSE YOU ARE LOVE BE YOURSELVES DONT CHEAT THE WORLD AS IF YOU PRETEND TO BE WHAT YOU ARE OT WHO THEN IS BEING DECEIVED AND FOOLED DO NOT PLAY JOKES IN FRONT OF ME HEALTHY SENSE OF HUMOR IS GOOD BUT DO NOT TRY TO JOKE WITH ME AND LAUGHT AT WHAT I DONT LAUGH THIS IS A WORLD OF FEELINGS HUMAN IS MADE OF BLOOD AND FLESH AND HAS SENSE ORGANS IN ORDER TO BE ABLE TO BRING LOVE TO THIS WORLD ANYONE WHO GOES AWAY FROM HIS REAL FORM AND IS NOT TRUE TO GOD -THE CREATOR WILL LOSE HIS BODY OF FLESH AND BLOOD FOREVER AND TURN INTO A METALLIC ROBOT -TO SERVE- KINGS AMONGST US ARE THOSE WHO WERE ABLE TO PERSEVERE KEEPING THE BRAVENESS OF HEART THE SMILE OF FACE THE HONESTY OF SOULS THE POSITIVENESS AND DIRECT RESPECT FOR THE CREATOR AT ALL TIMES DO NOT TEST YOURSELVES DO NOT DOUBT YOURSELVES DO NOT JUDGE YOU WONT BE JUDGED DO NOT JUDGE YOU DONT KNOW HOW DO YOU HAVE ENOUGH LOVE TO TAKE SUCH RESPONSIBILITY UPON YOURSELVES TO JUDGE MEANS TO REASON ,TO BE ABLE TO GIVE ALL NECESSARY LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING TO THOSE WHO HAVE MADE A MISTAKE WHICH FIRSTLY HURTS THE ONE WHO MAKES IT SO WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO GIVE ADDITIONAL PAIN TO THAT PERSON WHO MADE A MISTAKE AND IS IN BAD POSITION.WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO ADD PAIN INTO THIS WORLD? YOU HAVE TIME TO CHANGE REFLECT CHANGE ARE YOU HERE FOR PAIN? REVENGE ZE LO SIPUR AHAVA Hakol Midrash- Ze AHAVA AHAVA HUVA. Ani me ISRAEL Eser EL Arbaa-Elanim arbaa ze eser kan TFILA 4 /1+2+3+4=10 Hakol Malkhut ve kan She be Shamaim. Ani Gara She be Shaiaim she SHKHUNA. Aval ani mistagenet l ' Anashim (Huva)Sheli. Anashim Makhshavot ktanim sheli ve Ani Tsrikha Lahuv ve latet et hakol SHUVANIM Davnym Davno ya byla Kruglym nulem. Polnaya nolj! Ya sobralas v tochku to est sosredo TOCHilas is sozdala eshe tri takikh nuley. Pervyuy ya sozdala s takoy lyubovyu chto ona poluchilas ochen ochen goryachey y nazvala eyo ya Solntsem. Ya srazy jhe sozdala xolodnuyu lunu dlya balansa/ ravnovesia- 2 nolik.Potom ya sozdala syna moego Ezekiel ot pravdy ot vremeni y podarila emy shar zemnoy- 3 nolik. I loved my son very much and gave him everything I had. I used to fly down to Earth to my son to see his achievements. Each time my Ezekiel showed me some new plant he had given life to and he was so happy! I, most of all liked to eat " TUT" which he had invented and planted and he fed me TUT right from his hands. He called me TUTKA , laskovo. Once I asked him: Ezekiel I have given you all of my Love and all I had - could you think of something which would be as big as MY LOVE. He said that he for sure would. Next time I came down to Earth to see my son he produced me three round metallic things . he called them coins. He said. This one is for Sun, This one - for the Moon, and this one is For the Earth. What? I answered upset. You want to put my Sun, Moon and Earth on the same scale as these metallic coins?? I flew away... My son cried" Prosti!!! Tutka!!!!" He begged me to return , he said he would find something better. I came back again. MY son then, showed me some paper which he called rouble. He said he had made it from the tree. WHAT?? You are spoiling my NATURE(as character/as greenery) to PROVE your LOVE??? I flew away again. This time to never come back. My son went up the globe in search of me and stopped at a higher point. he called it America. There he painted his roubles green color which cant be found in the nature( so I dont tell him hes playing with my nature..) and he wrote on it that he trusts in me... MY son keeps waiting for me up there.. and while hes waiting he tries to give and get Love from any woman he sees , -offering his dollars- in search of me- tryig to detect me.. Those who dont take, hear: "Prosti!!! Tutka!!!" Those who do hear the same but the two words connected. But isnt it just easy Ezekiel? Shouldnt it be Simply LOVE FOR LOVE?? I wont come to you ever again in America Ezekiel, UNLESS you find another ecquivalent for LOVE. This is your mother L./ |