My Unrequited Feelings For You

My Unrequited Feelings For You

"Actually, there is a girl I like."

Andrew told me, a faint beam evident on his face. It seems like he's high-spirited. After some years the two of us were finally close.

"So I'm just a friend?"

is the question written on my mind, yet I don't want to spit it out for I'm afraid to do something that may make him hate me. And also I don't want him to discern my real feelings.

"Actually, I really like you"

are the words that I'm very careful of ― careful of not stating it to him 'coz even we're close there is still a distance. That small distant is drowning me away from that guy. I need to think of my actions twice or thrice for him not to get mad. It is not that easy to utter those simple words



A sunny afternoon, while on the shades walking next to Andrew, I clearly distinguished that he's thinking about that girl. Oh, the girl he is in love with. It even made him smile. Looking at his happy face, well, in all honesty I cannot last this any longer. I decided to slow my pace and walk behind him in an angle of ... maybe 30 degrees? Being unable to see each others facial expression, the two of us stayed on that position with a deafening silence.



I don't know anymore.

I don't know!

I don't know what I should do.

When will my insuperable emotions escape? In that question there is no answer. My thoughts for Andrew are unrequited. And even he has someone he's in love with, I have no plan to give up! Am I the only one who is thinking about the distance between our love? Oh, I mean between my love (towards him). Say, since I don't want him to hate me and I want to stay around with him. I will simply lock my feelings away and say,

"I'll be supporting you, Andrew!"

Should I stop liking him? Although we finally get to know deeper to each other, I can still sense that great distance between Andrew and me. Should I stop seeing him I would like to, a part of me says it so. But I'm unable to sort out my own feelings.



It's a cold midnight, cold as the way I felt when we are considerable as not friends yet and maybe until now. He called me.

"I need some advice."

he said, without knowing my true feelings.

"If you can only understand a girl's heart better, maybe your love will work out?"

And yes, there is no way for me to bluntly tell him that.



I still have no idea on how will I tell him my true feelings. My questions do not have answers yet. When will I let this emotions out? My feelings for him are unrequited. I don't want to give up!



At that moment I'm thinking if I should still like him. My thoughts are battling, hush I don't know! Uh. We met each other and it's a bit tough to make a step to become closer to him. If I stop, will my feelings return in the near future? My love for him is unrequited, but that's fine, for I guess I just want us to stay as friends, at least? But it's all like a dream. I hope someday he'd become aware of my actual feeling for him.

And since I don't want to get hated by Andrew...

and I want to stay with him...

I locked my feelings away and said,

"I'm sure everything will turn out fine for the two of you!"

with a phony smile.



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Inspired by the song: My Unrequited Feelings For You

Vocaloid/Singer: Gumi/MEGPOID

© to the song's respective owner