the cancer ring rough draft

The Cancer Ring

I am in a battle; this battle is very difficult. I could die any day, because I am in a ring with cancer I am in a ring to fight for my life. A battle that sometimes I feel I cannot win, besides that let me show you how it all began.

                 It was two weeks ago and I was having horrible pain under my ribs on my left side, I thought it was appendicitis or bladder I don’t know I am only 15 years old. I ended fainting, so my mother brought me to the hospital and I found out I have C.M.L (Chronic myelogenous leukemia). I remember I was diagnosed two weeks ago because it was April fools. Something you should know is I am a jokester, I wrote in every class room 2013 instead of 2014 for the date, but I wish I would have collapsed April 2nd (2014 of course) because everyone at school interpreted I was joking until I started bleeding and bruising out of know where.

                 “I am scared I feel sometimes I deserve this I know your thinking “no you don’t” but, picture it like this mom if I didn’t deserve it why do I have it im sorry about being loquacious but I am very nervous what if I don’t win? what if cancer kicks my but? Will it be a waste fighting? Mom please say something” I said she stuttered “I I don’t know honey all I do know is we have to stay strong together because we can’t just give up I know you may feel like it’s too hard to hold on but tie a not at the end of that rope and hang on” she started crying that’s when I hugged her  I have to stay strong for her.

I hate chemo its horrible! imagine feeling like your starving, but every time you eat you puke so bad but, after you want to eat again, then you are heating up everywhere in your body. You  feel like you can’t move, also this is a little personal but you also can pee red it’s the worst thing ever I get freaked out almost every time.

I’m glad I have Ella she is my girlfriend she has always stayed with me I love her eyes, her blonde hair, and her loving personality. She always gives me strength to hold on and keep fighting. I know that when I met her she loved me for who I was before cancer, and still does for who I am now

                 “Tyler” my mom said shyly as she tapped on the hospitals rooms’ door.

“Yes” I replied.

“The doctor and I talked” she said.

“What happening now”?I said I was worried.

“You’re having a surgery in an hour to try to get the rest of the cancer cells out the chemo’s not enough it’s hard for me to explain you know with you bleeding easily umm. She stopped

“What”? I said

“It could be… fatal.” She said crying.

Well let’s hope that won’t happen mom if it does I love you and Ella okay?” I said tiredly

“ehem excuse me Tyler are you ready?” The nurse said.

“Yeah I’m ready” I replied. I can’t believe it’s has been an hour. After this I’m done with this cancer, at least I hope.

                 It felt weird as I was being rolled down the hall, the vibrations, people talking, and even the crying.                 

                 I am now sleeping and I feel myself getting weaker and I’m really tired but surgery just started and I’m sleeping that’s the weird part or am I sleeping now? I can see my mom and girlfriend crying but I’m not sure unless I didn’t make it, I’m very confused now because I don’t know withier I’m dead or under. I don’t like this.

                 I found out it was a dream. I am done with chemo and at home I still could die I am very weak still that’s what chemo does I’m glad I made it through the surgery I am in my bed I am getting to the end I can feel it its getting hard to breath my mother and Ella are by me. They are telling me it’s okay to let go I don’t need to keep struggling I can move on I say I love you and close my I eyes and know they will not open again.

                 



I see a bright light I realize I made! It my body may have not made it but my soul has and, I know that working hard not giving up, trying to the best of my ability’s is winning, I did not fail I did it. I can always watch over my family I bet they know I love them and I’m watching over them.  This is how I know not to give up do the best of your ability’s and always try, try, try.