Do you like rollercoasters?

Because there are situations that are like being on a rollercoaster.
Not in your direct control, but with inevitable results.
You'll most likely get back to the beginning, at the end,
but you will be a different person with an update in age, adrenaline, memories, hair style.

It always surprised me how normal people looked
strolling away from rollercoasters.
like older siblings who have already gone through my struggles
calm in their hindsight
my rollercoaster of emotions.

Once you're strapped in, you can choose
reject it, dread everything
"no, this isn't what I want, no no no"
or accept it
try
"yes well, this is what I've gotten into"
to enjoy the ride

Do you feel in control of the situation?
Or are you a stressed out and anxious victim of
anything but yourself?
"This isn't what I want,
I don't wanna, why am I here?"

Are you willing to put yourself on that rollercoaster in the first place?
How motivated are you to do something?
Pick up your pens
run into the forests
pore over the book
learn a new way to live life.
Does it seem scary to you or do you get a rush out of it?
Which way do you end up going if you're somewhere in the middle?
Where will you go
and what will you do?