short poem of a dark time in my life |
For days and days I would lay, still so the pain would slowly fade away. My life in a seemingly downward spiral recently my popularity appeared to be viral For a man that just had it all is on the path to surely fall, my friends they would not call they were not friends after all. It’s a miracle I’m alive, I was just surprised to escape my demise. The judge made her ruling the sentence nothing less than grueling. With my spine a mangled mess I would put alcohol to the test the pain i'm trying to suppress. Through the darkness I feared, finally a life-saving light appeared. I am not alone anymore and the alcohol I pour, down the drain erase the memory from my brain. I am blessed to be alive these struggles I will take in stride. It's a beautiful pain I feel every day reminds me of a darker way I once lived. Foot note in 2008 I was arrested on 2 felony charges and was offered a drug rehabilitation program on felony probation. my first week I violated the means of the agreement. I hit a tree at 60 mph and was ejected from the vehicle, while being heavily intoxicated. I filed a plea and was facing 5 years if another incident ac cured. I drank heavily for 12 months of my program and 1 month before being released something came over me entirely, still to this day I haven't had a drink nor seen a single soul from my darker days. I am strong and extremely blessed |