A Crowded Aloneness

Out the window I look, await my friends I shall. Ah, whats that sound! They are here! My friends are here! Here they come, Manny walking with briefcase in hand, and Cali, with her slim dress - oh so pretty. He’s smiling! A good day perhaps?

I can’t believe I got the account! My bonus is going to be the biggest yet! I can finally afford to buy her that ring and propose!

Ah, please stay and talk Manny for a bit longer - damn they are in a hurry. Maybe tomorrow we can talk for longer. Yes..maybe then.

Silence again. Damn, I hate the silence. What a feeling, a kind of pain that stabs you in the mind. I need to see my friends, ah 12:00, time for Deana! Shes here to tell me the weather! Better turn the tube on before I miss her. What does the forecast look like Deana?

Rain with a chance of thunderstorms is the forecast for the next two days. As for the weekend-

Ah what a bummer. I thought maybe we could do something - oh Deana, so pretty. Why can’t we just run away together, run away to some place where we can live happily ever after. Your hair today is lovely, your smell - oh. so. euphoric.

Who else is here I wonder! Oh! Look, old lady Meredith is walking her dog down the street! I must go and say hi! Meredith how are you?

Um, oh, I’m okay, need to- have an appointment can’t stay and chat, sorry.

Oh ok. For an old lady she sure walks fast.

Hmm silence again! I hate silence. It makes me want to pull my hair out! I just wish to escape from it, run away to a place with noise and people. Gah, all my days I spend here sitting fighting away this silence. Ah I see, it laughs now! It taunts me now! HA! The bastards can’t get me! Anyone else here? Anyone? ANYONE?

Damn! NO one. What, no your laughing at me? Bastard! Stop laughing at me!

My entire life you have taunted me - fuck you!

I’ll rip my ears off before you ever win!

No escape, no life. Ha, HA! I’ll escape. And I’ll have a life.

I’ll prove everyone wrong, wheres my pills now. They will shut you up!

No, NO. Don’t mock me, stop mocking ME.

Ha, ha, ha!

Sleep I need sleep, to much silence. To much silence.

Sleep, sleep.

sleep.