I'm not waiting

I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting in my heart for you !
I'm done praying! for a chance to prove what I am now done
Trying to show you !

It's already fading !
In the face of failing to breakthrough to you !

It's like I've been sinking,
drowning in the ways that I couldn't get to you...

But now I'm now thinking, that my life can go on after you!

So I'm not waiting! I'm not waiting in my heart for you !

The only thing that I had left to lose was my fading hope
and an emotional bruise that I kept as a reminder of
The time I spent with you !

And now it's over! And I choose to accept what became of you,
I choose to respect what should be a regret because I'm done
Failing... yeah I'm done fading and praying and waiting for my fiction
to turn into a truth when I never even got as much from you !