Pretend

Is it wrong for me to feel this way
I definitely know it's not okay
I can't keep us this facade any longer than I must
You try to look deep in my eyes
I lift them up and fake a smile
You'll never know what hides behind your lust

And I'm jealous
I'm jealous of the life you live
And I'm jealous of the love you give
Even though I'm on the receiving end
I hate it that you care too much
And I hate it that it's not enough
I hate that I'm too broken to mend
And that with you
I can't pretend