The story of a complex love |
I met you I liked you, so young, but I liked you I didn't understand, still don't. But as I kept looking, kept talking, it became apparent. I really liked you. We became close, knowing family, sharing friends You stole your daddy's truck at 11, We just drove around until they found out My mom hated you, still does James and Amanda were okay with you though I'd try to come over all the time Time went by, memories were shared, When I'd see you all I'd want was a hug Whatever it was, I felt it I got to 7th grade and something happened I'm stupid, I know I went out with Austin...and Grant... Your best friends and it was just to get you jealous Austin was nice, clingy though Grant...well we know how that ended After he cheated you punched him, broke his nose too Is it bad that it felt good you did that? Just a year later, you took me out for dinner John and Nick's Steakhouse It was the first date of a long relationship to go Being young and underage, we would either watch TV, Movies, or go to the rooftop. God the rooftop... Getting high, drunk, doing other things It was so wrong, but so fun. But with wrong fun comes consequences... I began drinking...excessively, and you did too I started smoking pot excessively Life was hard, but I had to go through it I still had to deal with Allison Remember that time I drank too much... Yeah I passed out. You thought I died. My friends began to learn about me About the drinking and the smoking And only a short while after they found out You went to the rooftop without me... It took you two weeks to get the balls to tell me To tell me you got drunk, met a girl And while we were dating... What I did to you when you told me... I am sorry. But what I did a short time later... I'm more sorry about I had repaid you the favor, but not as far And once again it happened on the rooftop The scars are one way to remember this story After a few months we started talking again. It was awkward but I was glad to see you. May11th came along, and that was the last time... For both of us. At least that's what you said would happen. Everything went fine for about a year Started dating again, hanging out at every chance. But something was different It wasn't the same yet I still had feeling for you, but I couldn't just... I couldn't just leave you. After a few months, I broke it off But I still stuck around I stopped by almost every Saturday Made dinners, watched movies, Sometimes spent the night I basically... led you on Whatever your thoughts were while I did this You never rejected or opposed Time went on again I began thinking too much again Soon you met another girl It happened so fast I can't remember her name She was a bad influence on you You drank again...a lot You did so much crap...had me thinking non-stop It was almost three weeks of hell But you came to the right consensus The right mind set You went clean again But I couldn't forgive you Choosing her over me...I just couldn't So again, time went by I bet every day I thought about you And every day I wondered what to do I'm still wondering You were my first best friend, First crush, First kiss And if I believed in it yet, My first love I'm a broken record saying this But as time will go by We don't know what will happen Maybe We'll move on Or get together again Or somehow get to a just friends, no feelings basis. Maybe Just maybe, I won't need to wonder anymore. Maybe someday, I'll just know. |