A twisted poem about my life, my OCD, and my deepest fears of the world outside. |
-Only These Walls Hold Me Here- by Keaton Foster This prison Six by ten The ceiling Just above The floor Always below The door locked As they convey My own safety Is paramount I can come And I can go Always As I please At least That is what I now believe In this place Within my case Reality Is not so real Everything Plan faked An illusion Of an illusion Cleverly done Upon my behalf I’m convinced There is no truth There are no lies Just in between Riding the seam Both sides is death Down the middle Exactly the same Copies of copies The apple never falls far From a poisoned tree I’m doomed Minutia clutters My empty skull And saturates My burdened soul God knows My deepest woes Only these walls Hold me here I am free to leave But I cannot go Just anywhere I have to have A finite destination A meaningful purpose Life is nothing Without both At least that’s What they say Confess it really I am no deity But they treat me As if I am a living Breathing Hypocrisy They judge me More than they Judge themselves They hold me higher Because they know The fall is greater They are sure I deserve What it is they impose But as I often say I don’t Only these walls Hold me here I could leave I’m free to escape Walk right out Into the world beyond Into that sea of humanity That I’ve done all that I can To completely avoid I’m not sick I’m just not well My mind Betrays my heart My heart Betrays my emotions I am unable to feel Because I am numb Broken from day one Ripped from the womb Of a mother That I don’t know Brought to this place Held with regard Kept safe from myself Via the guise of all else I cannot escape Because there is nothing Keeping me here Nothing but me And what I know I won’t allow myself The luxury of seeing What is out there In that big world That I’ve done all That I can to avoid This place And these walls Were built By these hands The same ones That have created And destroyed much Of what I should have Allowed myself to love Only these walls Hold me here… Only These Walls Hold Me Here Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2015. |