Closer I

-Closer I-
by Keaton Foster



Upon
This ledge
Wondering
What if
Here
So very clear
Always have I been
This is home
A humble abode
No walls
No celling
No adornments
Just nothing
In every direction
At every intersection
Comfortable
Obliteration
Is always there
Waiting
One step away
A leap of fate
Of a skyscraper
Of immense pain
All of this
Was built by me
And me alone
Those behind
Will wonder
At least
For a time
Those below
Will be forced
To embrace
The horror
Of a man like me
Heavy indeed
Hitting the ground
From a height
Damn near
Unimaginable
Closer I
Headlong
It will be
No fear
No worry
Not an once
Of concern
For what’s next
Nothing
Or everything
Matters not
An escape
From this place
From my ways
Is good enough
For a man like me
I am not sad
Nor am I afraid
I am nothing really
An empty pit
Hellishly thick
Is the air
That invades
Flooding in
Filling the seams
Saturating my mind
Allowing me no peace
Showing me
Who I really am
And what I must do
Never letting me
Be sure of anything else
This is fate
This is an escape
A way down
From all that is above
My head sinks
My heart falls
Closer I
Then ever before
I’m ready to go
Quick to leap
Feet first
Tumbling down
The sound
Like all things else
Is nothing
The impact
I’m sure will be great
But I won’t know
How could I
All that I’ve known
I knew when I
Was so alive
I hated every second
Of my tedious existence
And now
I hate nothing
Least of all…



Closer I
Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2015.