Addition To A Ship At Sea

I came back to this poem mainly because it feels very personal to me. I had a sudden moment of inspiration and felt compelled to add on this new section. I hope that you can relate to these feelings and please do contact me to tell me what you liked or disliked about it. Thank you!

Connor Puetzer: A Ship At Sea

My heart was once a ship on an endless sea,
Constantly searching for the promised land,
Never actually expecting to find it.
I let multitudes of different people,
from different walks of life,
Guide my ship.
They promised to show me the way to shore,
But somewhere along the way,
There was, and always will be,
An obstruction.
They put a gash on the side of my ship
And instead of staying to fix the hull,
They left me stranded and alone.
In these moments, I found myself continuously staring down,
Into the endless abyss below me,
Wishing it would take me.
I know now that I must sail on.
I must keep searching for that one person,
Who will show me the way to shore.
One day they will come out of nowhere,
And into my life.
The currents will stop,
The abyss will be as a rumor,
And the only thing that will exist is me, and them.
As human beings, it is our very nature,
We let people into our hearts in our search for love.
Most of these people will do nothing,
Besides leave a crack in the hull.
We may never find the one person that all of us so desperately needs.
We could be taken by the mighty tide,
That the sea ceaselessly berates our ship with,
And all of our efforts could be in vain,
As we are slowly taken to the bottom.
But there is still that omnipotent, unending hope,
That one day on a blue moon,
That perfect person will come along.
This hope, this dream,
Is stronger then the tides will ever be.
This is the most terrifying and beautiful aspect of life,
Because when you are old and reaching the end of your journey,
It is not the small cracks that will tear you asunder,
Its the people you never let aboard,
That will truly sink your ship.

And then I met you.
You were everything that I had been looking for
And nothing I expected to find.
I know now that the abyss is and always will be there.
That no matter what effort I make,
there will always be rough waters on my journey.
That one day I can and will be ripped apart by a storm I cannot weather.
Yet I am content, because I know you will be by my side.
You cant make the abyss disappear before me,
but you can stand by my side as we laugh it away.
That all my effort could be in vain, yet I am able to love you without any.
I know the rough waters will always be there, but I've faced God's very wrath upon my ship and I will not falter with you by my side so may the sea send it's mightiest waves and deadliest storms so I can show you what I can do to protect you.
I no longer need to find the shore
the two of us together are stronger then any mountains the earth could allow.
And even though one fateful day,
I will be ripped away from this world to whatever lies beyond,
it's okay.
Because I am no longer afraid of the end, if I face it with you.
I'm content with my eternity, as long as I try to make every moment with you last longer than it.
I welcome the absolute, for it will be a culmination of every smile,
every laugh,
every tear,
every beautiful moment that I had the divine grace,
to spend, with you.