Feeling of falling apart

Feeling of falling apart
Losing control of a darkening heart
Those past Internal tears full of long ago events and fears
Looking for relief but mainly caused by peers
Hiding inside the mind of silence and pretending that all was fine
Thinking isolation had been the only answer at the time
All can be done now is curl up into a mental fetal position
As done so many times before to cover this old and familiar emotion
Cracking at the mental seams
Oozing from the weakened stitching of time worn thread
A longtime punishment of masking will have to be fed
Exhausted from the minds day time for the nights bed
Sitting up in the morning thanking GOD for the new day
The mind starts again getting its own way
Again another day of internal mental mourning is on tap for today

11/16