21
Years
Those dreaded
thoughts I once used to hold,
Of Lady Elf's
story that's never been told.
That very
first day as husband and wife,
His mission
alone was to destroy my life.
Fights with my
head that drove me insane,
As I tried to
be strong and take the pain.
He warned me
each day if I tried to leave,
He would hang
himself; I'd better believe.
I hated his
anger, mind games and lies,
That red
clenched jaw and dilated eyes.
Crazy laughs
as he bent my arm back,
Threats if I
left, I would hear it crack.
I stood in the
woods on one terrible night
To switch off
my life and never see light.
My stomach all
tight like an elastic band
Shaking all
over with a blade in my hand.
Maybe he was
right, I was a terrible wife,
Totally
worthless and didn't deserve life.
Thoughts of my
kids locked in my head,
Fights with
demons that wanted me dead.
Three mental
breakdowns, twenty-one years,
That I lived
with that man in total fear.
Those long
nightly plans to exit my life,
Just to live
in peace and not be his wife.
He left me
broken with his deadly touch,
Trapped in a
life that I hated so much.
Those crazy
rages that scared me to death,
Hands
around my throat gasping for breath.
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