Turmoils of my life

Why few of my friends are covetous? Why they can't see me growing? Zillions of such questions swirl around my mind. I have never been into a friendship that sustained for more than a year. These moments of angst are creating a sense of despondency in the inner world of mine. I sometimes question myself whether I am that repulsive. I feel awful these days. I have no good friend to share my thoughts and aspirations. Thus, I am writing here..... I'll soon come up with great stories of my life that will leave you dumbstruck.