I Am

I am a monster but I don't know how to contain myself,
I wonder why I let the evil control me,
I don't fell like one,
I feel like we,
I hear the screams I muffled to distract me,
I feel like I'm caught in a chain,
Inside my own body,
I don't even control,
I see all the girls I hurt,
Scared and alone,
But, what's inside me can be seen,
I am seen as the monster waiting to hurt thee.
I want to break free.

I pretend I'm in control,
I feel broken for the actions I wish I could not own,
I touch people in the wrong way,
But I promise you it was never me,
Not even one day,
The monster controls what I say,
I can't contain him,
I worry that ill hurt everyone in my path one day,
I cry for help,
No one can hear,
The monster who owns me,
Shows no fear.

I understand I've made mistakes,
and I try to blam,
The monster who I sham,
When it must control me because I let him in,
But I say nothing of my own because the monster always wins,
I try to break free,
I'm not my monster from within,
But I stopped trying because the monster will never give in,
I dream the monster will set me free,
To be who I want to be,
I hope one day you can all forgive me.