how I killed Tony A and got away with it

Esoteric? "No, exoteric. You know, like charity. I don't want the first thing I do as an adult to be for money." It was all so new and a bit confusing. I was able to do anything? It seemed all I had to do is try. We were having so much fun exploring our thoughts and feeling, while creating a program to help ourselves. I lost sight of this fact and became overly concerned about how others, in the future, would take my words. Would they understand me? could they relate? Or was it all just so common that anyone could fit my list of traits. But for the first time in my life I was enjoying myself, I was free. So I kept going, whatever they wanted me to do I did.
It all made sense. My family life while growing up had been so oppressive that I never learned what I could do, let alone who I was.No all I learned was what I could not do, what I was not and what a disappointing person I was no matter what I did. Now I was coming into myself it seemed. I was somebody, didn't know who that somebody was but I was not just a dot.
I could hear well enough and see while growing up. But I was like a boy in a box with just a slit to see out into the world around me.