Do you know how much it hurt How much pain I'm in When you said if I'm like this, you won't support me, mother? You are such a hypocrite, your best friend is a Lesbian. Yet your daughter cannot be. I can't change who I am. Now I will never be able to talk to you about anything Relationships Love Problems Bullying Anything. You've made me trap my feelings With all old friends too far away because of moving With no father figure to trust Because you fall for the wrong guys I love you Why? Why can't you accept me the way i am? I'll never be good enough for you. I'd even kill myself, but I fear pain. And I have much to live for. \But the pain. It hurts so much. You even favor my sister Just because she is young. One day i am beatiful, The next day you scream at me that i am a fat ass whom will amount to nothing. Why can't you just make up your mind? I don't want to Change. Because no matter who I am I'll never be good enough I love myself I AM beautiful. Even at 230 pounds. Even with bad hygeine at times. Even if I like girls. Why... You make me feel like nothing Because thats all you say I will amount to You make me wish I was never spawned In your 17 year old belly Because you make life almost as painful as death. Why am I never good enough? You make me think you hate me. I know I am blessed. I have many nice things. But those are THINGS, Not my feelings. I Hurt so much I cry so much I ignore it most days But some it comes crashing down And I can't stop the tears now. I just hope someday I will. |