BLUE CALAMUS

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chapter 1


BLUE CALAMUS'S

DRIFT OF AN ILLUSION



















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For now it is clear to me that my whole moving around the endless loop goes for nothing. What I was searching for so long in my entire life never existed in real. I was drifted in the shire bond of my own creations and now , I am here, standing alone. But there is no grief about it in me, there is only the sound of the heartbreaking sad music rotating around me, which are indefinite to my visions. All of my knowledge of living in a hope for the most beautiful shine i count for now, has gone away from me, faded to a long distance and will never be reborn. This is not dark, but it is painful. The hurt begins at a normal chaos , but then the chaos turns itself to a thread that has the beeds of scars that are stuck onto my senses. The beautiful picture is still present in front of me, smiling at me, but is unknown to me. It recognizes me as the stranger I always was for it, and now, I know I will always be the same.



In time, I will show you what it is like to see your deepest desire go away from you, touching your heart, and keeping the void inside you as the regards.



In time, I will present you the meaning of the life you have, because I drowned it , in waiting for the rainbow to come.



In time , I will show you the most beautiful thing I still have in my heart, even if it is just a illusion of my drifting mind.









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