Why?

Why? After 6 months of leading me on
Why? After treating me like I was special
Why? After convincing me that I was actually desirable to someone
Why did you have to come out to me like you did?

When did you stop to consider?
When did you really get to know me?
When did you come to the conclusion
That I would be okay after it all?

Am I only looked at as a hiding place?
Am I a person to others?
Am I someone who has feelings, or
Am I too good at pretending I'm unshakeable?

What a turn of events...

Did you know what you were doing?
Did you care to realize?
Did you plan it all this way from the beginning?
Did you turn out to be an immature person after all..?

I gave you my time when others wanted it more
I let you into my heart
I had to pry myself open to consider your love, but
I guess it was all for a painful ending.

I'm happy that you told me.
I'm happy that you trust me.
I'm happy that we share good memories, but
I'm hurting more than I let on...

How do I go on?

You "like me as a friend"
You saw me as a safe-haven for secrets and insecurities, but as
You say you want friendship, no apologies were made-
I only feel lied to and used.

Am I selfish?
Am I purposeless?

How...

I'm still sensitive..
I'm still awake..
I'm still confused..
When will it end?