Should I stay? Or go? |
It started behind a curtain of dark It was just there quiet, hiding, Pacing back and forth, like a blind lark Obsessing me; strange - it was sighing. Time passes more quickly now Cicadas chirping loudly every night, And I feel it coming closer - how? I am suddenly losing all my might. The walls in my house are moldy Knocking and sounds come to me, Outside, eerie trees look foggy And a constant noise in my head like a bee. A confusion in my mind I become scared and feel like screaming, What is there I might find Should I know - or am I just dreaming? In 1912 the house was built fast Heavy pieces of furniture carried in, After that, it all started - alas! A midnight dark mist was within. I think it wants me into the wall Or better, under its structure, Hovering me to belong, but - I stall, I tell myself I am not a creature. Why am I still here; I could easily go But the true account is that I own it, How is that I can't reveal what I know If I dare talk I will be gone; every bit, Out of respect for the dead I feel that I am now quite dead indeed, I am not in a grave nor in my bed I'm outside somewhere, held deep. Poor poor silly me Fear and endless faint trumping, Oh I took fear of thee And down the window I went, rumbling. Silly silly me Oh yes To think I am alive and well, This is how you rot, I guess When your own scent you can smell. It took me ... that dark It takes you - you cannot stop it at all, It comes no matter what Footsteps approaching you, and you fall. So I tell you my story, dear reader Don't try to escape the big, sick dark, Neither raindrops nor thunder stops it - it's a leader When you are trapped - you embark. It is a terrible thing to look at oneself How can one forget something as essential as that, How does one forget a death of - yourself? Without my body, nothing, no habitat. We make our ghosts out of ourselves - look! The dark makes you know it first, and waits calmly, Lives till the end of it enough to fill a book You poor thing, it takes you away - fiercely. Now I see nothing, only the death dark But I think a little longer I will stay, To know if I am myself or the black dark Or a thought, a whisper, a soul; a prey? Word Count: 441 |