What Great Sin

What great sin have I committed that you
stay so far off? Speak it and I will repent!
For in your silence, it would seem that you
desire me crushed in my loneliness.
Did I not rot in my shame until your
kindness drew me to mournful repentance?
And yet I rot just as I had before
When death you would not allow me to have!
What strides, if any, have been made if still
my darkness returns to me? And what plan
was conceived that dismal night if I am
only to find myself in this place again?
If this darkness again should fill my life
then let me not wake from it one more night!