Issues

'Cause I got issues
But you got 'em too
So give 'em all to me
And I'll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
Of all our problems
'Cause we got the kind of love
It takes to solve 'em

Yeah, everyone got issues. Who doesn't? Currently my issues are jobless, homesick and staying with someone that is not on the same wavelength as me. Like from a completely different planet. Forever on opposite ends of a stick, positive and negative poles that repel each other with a vengeance. Maybe I'm stubborn but hey somethings you just can't back down from. Like when a person is trying to run your life. When you are 27 years old, I think it is an age when it is too old for someone to try to run your life. They should have done that when I was five. I am too old for all this. Yes, I know I'm being selfish and all that. But I don't know. Maybe I should not have let them step all over me in the first place. But what can I say. I am a kind person. I don't judge at first. I let people make their first moves. And then monitor and access the situation. I don't show my true nature. However, if they step on my toes one too many times, well, they deserved what was coming at them.

Yes, I am quiet. I smile politely. I don't talk back to people. I may seemed weak and docile. But when the beast inside decides that she has had enough, she really has had enough. Helpless. That's what I am feeling right now. Useless. I don't know how to get out of this rut. Six months of doing nothing. Well, not really nothing, but when compared to other people, it feels very unproductive. No income to support all my extravagance. Okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration but it is quite similar. What woman won't give to be able to shop until she drops?